I have had the privilege of growing up in a Christian home. I went to church every week and mostly thought of it as the place where I could get free prizes after service. I relied on my parent's walk with God instead of my own, and I didn't realize it until I got to middle school. My youth pastor at the time asked me, "Why do you believe what you believe?" To be honest, I didn't know how to respond, and since I didn't have an answer, my eyes were opened to realizations and questions I had never considered.
I struggled with that question for a while, and one day decided I would try to build my own walk with God. I started to pray on my own, occasionally read the Bible and started listening to the messages. I even got baptized which was an amazing experience! Soon, my best friend invited me to her church's youth group. From the time I walked in I knew that was home.
We went to youth group together every week, and eventually after about a year some of our other friends came with us! Life was amazing, and my walk with God was super strong. However, one day I met a boy and we instantly became close friends. I developed feelings for him quickly, and the same happened for him. One day we admitted to liking each other and started dating. He said he was a Christian just like me!
A friend warned me about red flags she saw in this relationship, and instead of listening, I pushed her away. He became an idol to me. He was all I talked and thought about... and he took God’s rightful place in my heart. I allowed it to become and unhealthy relationship, and it affected the way I saw the world. I was so negative all the time!
When we broke up, I realized I had made mistakes: I’d become blinded by my feelings, and let my emotions control my actions. I had grown so far from God that I ignored the Holy Spirit telling me to get out of that relationship. In fact, I had ignored just about everyone in my life. My eyes were opened to the damage I had done and what I needed to fix.
The process of healing after a break up was hard, but I knew I’d done the right thing. I began reading my Bible every night. I started praying again and enjoying youth group. As I pressed into knowing God, I read Jeremiah 29:11 which says: “‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord. ‘They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.’” This promise really helped me through that difficult time.
God brought healing to my friendships where I’d messed up. I was so encouraged that I started posting Bible verses on social media and sharing how relying on God had helped me, so others in the same situation could know they aren't alone.
It is so true that God uses ALL things for his glory! He took something that seemed bad at first, and He used it to bring me closer than ever to Him! I’ve become much more involved in youth group, and I even serve on the Student Leadership team! This year, I also decided to get connected at Bridge Women. I volunteer in the Pamper Lounge giving nail polish changes and as a greeter on the welcome team! It is incredible to be able to share His love with others! Now, I see that I’m an important part in the Body of Christ. And throughout the process, I’ve come to know many amazing girls and women who have made me feel like family!! Getting involved at church has helped me grow so much in my faith, and I am closer than ever to God. I am so grateful that God has brought me this far, and I know he’s got even more in store for my life!
